A photo book on panic attacks.
by Alessia Spina

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Project Description

Pandemonio is a photographic book about panic attacks.

I have been suffering from panic attacks for a long time.

Four years ago I decided to track and chase the footsteps of the monster, trying to face the fear, therefore the monster itself.

I met people suffering from panic attacks, sometimes friends, sometimes strangers.

I listened to lots of people, learned from their stories, and finally collected words and images.

“Pandemonio” is the outcome.

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Pan: God half human half goat, who scares travelers with terrible screams.

From here the term “panic”:

A visceral terror, fear without control and possessing us.

A God that resembles a demon,

A God that multiplies and becomes in fact “all demons” is a PANDEMONIO (PANDEMONIUM).


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Then, suddenly, my head under water.

The beast pushes me down, into the depths.

Only deep blue sea.

And then we begin to look for air just like fish, only without gills.

Nothing like before.

No visible surface.

We are under, inside, it is too late.

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A new force emerged, in the meantime: the power of being fragile, the most authentic power.

What resurfaced: even if we feel like dying, a panic attack CANNOT KILL YOU.

A positive event masked as a negative situation.

A rebellion of the body in comfortable situations now uncomfortable.

A help request from WITHIN.

A sign that we should change something.

Winning against the deceit of God Pan who, while terrorizing travelers, scares also himself, it is not impossible.

No beast is invincible.

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Pandemonio is also a photographic book about vulnerability, usually swept under the rug like shaming grime.

Though, the same vulnerability is the human characteristic par excellence.

A mechanism triggered by a society compulsively and continuously demanding strength, power, resolve, impassibility, indifference, rush.

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And we turn into depersonalized androids without humanity and sensitivity.

The most part of world population suffers from this disorder but is scared about talking of it, because tends to connect the event, or the sequence of events, to a kind of “handicap”, and to a disabling weakness.

A weakness that can, instead, become a strong point.

A strong point that can free us from a self-control’s addiction.

A useless lifeline pushing us away from ourselves and from other people.

The need to deepen the topic from a photographic point of view arises from the necessity to help other people, willing to assist us, in recognizing the beast.

When having a panic attack we are often helped by people who have never experienced it.

So, they do not know how to handle the situation.

That “fear of the fear”, which is so familiar for us, is not easily detectable, quite the opposite.

The beast is usually masquerade as tachycardia, fainting, tremor, nausea, dizziness, sweating, dyspnea.

Symptoms that can mislead.

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That is why is essential to be prepared and know how to recognize and accept those symptoms.

That is why is necessary to have the courage to ask for help and, in turn, to help someone else.

The nth case of panic attack experienced by an unexpected person triggered the desire to look through the lens of my camera what really happened from the outside.

Unfortunately, it can happens to everyone, to those people feeling unassailable too.

Pandemonio was like looking at myself from the outside, through the others.

It was sharing, empathy and courage, for myself and for the persons I met.

An outburst of the soul.

An incredible human experience.

Even if when panicking you feel like dying….

You will not die.

On the contrary, you will reborn.

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Book Specifications

Cover:brossura filo refe
Language:Italiano, English
ISBN: 9788885608405
Category: Photobooks, Racconti Fotografici
Tags: alessia spina, attacchi di panico, pandemonio, panico

Author Informations

NameAlessia Spina
Country Italia


Alessia Spina was born in a small town by the sea (San Benedetto del Tronto), on the east coast of Italy.

She takes pictures not to implode, escape valve number 1.

She lives and works in Milano as executive assistant of a full professor in cardiology and as tour leader, travelling all around Europe.

She attended a school of photography in Milano from 2016 to 2018 (Bottega Immagine) and takes pictures both with a digital and analog camera.

She attended a Water and Surf Photography Workshop in 2018 in Santander (Atlantica) and a Darkroom Course with black and white printing in 2019.

Exhibitions and self-produced photobooks:

“Il Paesino Racconta i Suoi Eroi”: a bw reportage of her small town daily life.

“Oktobermess”: a reportage of the Oktoberfest in Munich.

“Routine”: a selfportrait project about coupledom.

“Pandemonium”: a portrait project about panic attacks.

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